tune up the amp. my ears are barely bleeding

2011-07-04T09:19:00.000-07:00

This morning, I had a little vision.
I looked down on the path lying in front of me, with two chunky arrows pointing on opposite directions.

The first arrow on the left was tainted with gold.
The second arrow on the right was too dulled to be noticeable.

I followed the one that attracts me more of the two .
I had a chance to take a closer look to the end of that path. Lying ahead, imprints the same golden arrow and at the far end of the path, lies a coffin.

I took a step back.

I looked to the right, and noticed the same thing on the right with similar imprints of the dull arrow.
Then, I saw her, at the end of it, was someone so familiar but I couldn't make out who she is.
She minced every step I took towards her path.
Though we weren't talking, it seems as though she was there to see me through that dull, boring path. It felt nice.

Ask yourself, the weird random people reading this.
If you get only to choose one thing, Love or Fame.
Which would it be?

2011-07-03T05:03:00.000-07:00

Day 2

I feel like stabbing my head with a pencil and smoke through that hole.
Quitting sucks.

2011-07-02T12:24:00.001-07:00

Day 1

Quit Smoking.

2011-05-29T08:43:00.001-07:00

I spent my sunday watching reruns of big bang theory and playing fable 3.

How sad is it?

2011-05-10T07:40:00.000-07:00

I was browsing through our photos and this song was playing in the background.
I know I have moved passed it.
But god, I miss you so much.

2011-05-09T07:06:00.000-07:00

Life isn't that bad to me after all : )

2011-04-21T09:29:00.001-07:00

if everyone can only fall in love once, wouldn't the world be a better place?

2011-04-07T08:27:00.000-07:00

I'm tired, I don't think I have enough time to finish up studying for my papers.

I dont think I can quit smoking, I tried to buy gum today but the fucking pharmacist isn't around so I brought a pack instead.

I think I clubbed too much, but it seemed to be to only way to stay sane in my fucked up situation.

Even though it all seems very sad for me, I made wonderful friends. I'm closer to so many more people than I was .

I miss having a comfortable boring life.

I want a life that says I can stay home with u and do nothing but be happy.

But everyone knows, that never happens. Its just like what I have been telling my friends, most people aren't looking to get into a relationship, and thats the problem with guys, if the girl wants a fling, give her a fling.

If I can make a wish right now, I wouldn't ask for anything for myself.
I would ask for the world to be a better place and let there be no more hatred in this world.

2011-03-25T08:17:00.000-07:00

I'M GOING TO BE HAPPY AND SHUFFLE EVERYDAY.

2011-03-09T07:47:00.001-08:00

I realised, that I can never be happy with you.

2010-10-23T06:23:00.000-07:00

they say, you chase cheap thrills and pay back in heartbreaks.

2010-08-06T10:42:00.001-07:00

I feel like I dont even know you anymore.

2010-08-05T10:26:00.000-07:00

I'm really tired.
I tried so hard.
All I want is us to last.
I don't care.
I'm not going to let another person go again.
I'm never letting you go.
Even if it means I will lose all my ego, so be it.

Do you understand the feeling of losing someone ?
Right then, when you feel like everything was so unreal.
You swore to yourself "I will never fall in love again."
Cause it hurts so much.

Then comes the part, you get back your freedom.
You tell your friends that you are happier like this,
You tell yourself you are happier.
But you are lying to yourself.

You yearn for that special someone to come to you again.
Maybe someone better than the previous love.
You met that person.
You fell in love again.
Just when you feel like everything is finally going your way.

He breaks your heart.
You cry.
You scream in frustration.
Why did it happen to you.
Then you remembered.
That you swore to never fall in love again.

But you still did.
Its all because we can never keep away from temptations.
We cannot keep promises.
We are made this way.
In a way, we are breaking our own hearts.

If everyone can keep to their words,
when they say,
" I will be with you forever ".
No hearts will be broken.

I'm just crazy, its been so long since I typed rubbish.

2010-06-07T03:26:00.000-07:00

is it so hard to admit that it is your fault?

Why am I always the one to say sorry?
Why am I always the one trying to make things right?

I m as tired, I need you to reach out too.

2010-06-06T08:10:00.000-07:00

I don't understand.
When you need me, I am a phone call away.
I don't understand career minded woman.
They love hopeless romantic, they love being pampered and being the center of attention.
But no they don't want to pay for it.
I admit I need attention.
I don't think anyone wants to get screamed at everytime he wants some attention from his girl.
It kinda reminds me of this guy whose girlfriend seemed to be ashamed to be with him.
I feel like I don't even know you any more.

You know? Today I wanted to go out to look for ice cream balloons, cause after calling a few places which sells helim balloons, none of them carry any ice cream shaped balloons.
It was one stupid comment you made.
I went to look up at the net for an hour for it till I found one without a phone number.
Today , instead of looking for the balloon, I went to look for your present instead.
I found the things I wanted to make your present.
I thought of all the ways to make it special.
10min ago, I felt I did all that for nothing.
Its how much lesser you love me that hurts me.
I think I saw it once in a movie, she said " If you want her to know that you love her, you need to sing it to her"
Its not the I love you anymore.
Its the 5mins that matters.

I am just blabbering, cause I can't tell this to anyone.
You will just shout at me for being insensitive and disturbing you if I try to tell you.

I ask you once more,
If you feel like shit,
Your friends hates you,
Your family hates you,
You have no one to turn to,
and I push you away,
I spit on your face and say shut the fuck up.

How will you feel?

2010-06-05T10:03:00.000-07:00

Melbourne was awesome, i wanna go there again and have weird rainbow coloured ice cream with you all day.
I love u hun.

2010-05-27T03:20:00.001-07:00

im a little heartbroken.

2010-05-18T07:56:00.001-07:00

So much happened these few weeks.
Right now, I'm abit bothered with you talking to ex fling, but I can't tell you, cause we will fight over it again and I dont want it.
Maybe I am asking alot from a girlfriend.
I dont know. I regretted alot of stuff in the past.
Things I should have done, things I shouldn't have.
And I think you know me very very well now.
I know that finding someone who loves unconditionally isn't easy.
I am just scared, scared that one day I might get hurt cause you might change your heart and find reassurance from someone else.
It didn't seemed to be the case the last time and I really think it was purely my fault for not treating her right.
So I'm giving you the benefit of a doubt that you will not change your mind or your feelings.
I hope I am doing the right thing this time.
I can't afford to fall so bad again this time.
The last time almost drove me crazy.

I know I am controlling, in a way I like things to go my way, who doesn't.
Maybe I will find some idiot to control someday.
Im upset but have no one that can understand.
Jamie if you see this, ignore it.
I bet it will be so long before you will even notice it and it wouldn't matter anymore.

2010-05-14T18:21:00.000-07:00

Well, aren't u just wonderful?

Is it really my fault?

I let you go, and what you gave me was a shit drunk you after 30 miss calls to you.

I really think you should wake up and stop hurting those who care about you.

Cause thats all you do these days.

Hurting people.

2010-04-01T07:46:00.000-07:00

I hate it so much.arghh fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

2010-03-18T09:19:00.000-07:00

I know this is from really really long ago but I actually cried when I watched it.
Watch it and treasure your parents and grandparents more.

2010-03-05T17:11:00.000-08:00

MY CUTIE PIE HEHE =x APRIL COME FASTER PLSS

2010-02-18T23:21:00.000-08:00

These 4 months passed so quickly.
It felt surreal, the month I reached the airport, it felt like it was just yesterday when I held your hand and kissed u for the first time.
I didn't cry at the airport cause I was confused with what was happening and how fast everything was happening.
The only real time I broke down in tears was so unexpected and I think you know when it was.
You really changed me, in alot of ways people can't,
You got me through my toughest time when I needed someone with me.

I love you honey, come back soon.
I shall wait for you at the airport like an idiot with a bunch of flowers with a cute bow tie.

2009-12-17T02:07:00.000-08:00

I wrote you one hundred reasons for trust.
I wrote you one hundred reasons for us.
I wrote you one hundred reasons you were mine,
one hundred reasons you consumed my heart,
my thoughts and my time.
Those one hundred reasons still exist ,
though we have recently called it quits.
Those one hundred reasons are now locked away
but I promise
you can keep them,
if you promise to stay.

I read this over some stranger's blog just now and I just found it beautiful.

I have been reading a little these days , love stories.
Nothing seems to make sense, the girl never ever get together with her first love.
Her first love will always die or be a lesson for her.
Ends up, she is stuck with the 2nd guy she sees and tries to find her first love within the 2nd guy which just leads to pointless sex.
They break up, she dies alone.
Or she just gets together with the guy cause she doesn't want to die alone.

Tell me why ,
why do we still look for love when we know that they dont exist?

oh! the emo-ness haha.

I read this joke in one of the love stories.

" Fat , Fat Fat and Slap yourself were on a boat in the middle of the ocean.
Fat and Fat Fat fell into the ocean.
Who is left on the boat? "

Lol.

2009-12-12T05:21:00.001-08:00

Misses Jamie so much ! >.<

HUN, COME BACK SOON OK?

On the side note, Taylor swift song jamming section was nice =D . must.sing.more.taylor.swift.songs.
Meet up next week to drink again pls =)))

2009-12-06T07:09:00.000-08:00

So I got a problem with what to do with my next 2weeks, Jamie is flying for a holiday and I'm not really that sure what to fill my time up with.

1. World of Warcraft

Not the best idea but it really takes alot of time off me and i only need to spend 20bucks . However , I think it will make me look like a loser and turn me into a vampire or something so i rather not do this. Been there and it wasn't that good, talking to people you dont know and believing that they are your friends. Makes you hate the world .

2. Going to exercise

Since i am going back to BMT on Jan next year, might as well i try to make myself fitter in these 2weeks . So I promised to go to the gym with eugene every weekday that I am free. Might not be such a bad idea, smoking for a year really made me look like a vampire. Shall try my best to keep doing this for the 2weeks.

3. Going Clubbing and drinking

I think jamie will skin me alive the use the skin to deep fry. hahahaha i'm kidding , my girlfriend is the coolest =p But seriously , only do that when you are single or go there with your spouse. There aren't any happily ever after in clubs. Dont think i will do this, i got no extra money and leave left anyway.

Thats it, I got nothing else.
What the hell =.=.
Maybe I should try to look up abit more on the teaching career , I dragged on for too long =/ .

Oh I just had KFC's black pepper chicken, it was awesome =)).

my awesome past 2 months

2009-11-29T05:26:00.000-08:00

I haven't blogged properly once ever.

Thus, this shall be everything about me this past 2 months.
I guess if you still visits this blog, that means you are my close friend, or you are some weird stalker . ( which i kinda welcome, I never really had anyone stalk me before, it will be kinda cool )
There wouldn't be any emo-ness in this post cause I think I met the sweetest girl ever.

I was kinda down for this past year, with ex - gf stuff and all, picked up smoking for no good reason ( I got a feeling that I was just trying to get her attention ) =/ sucks huh? But Jamie kinda played a part to help me kick that habit. =)

I just try to summaries everything from the start.

24th SEP 09
Butterfactory
11.30pm - 1.30 am

I met her that day, I went to butterfactory with jon and steph . Honestly , I wasn't there to hook up girls ( I never did anyway haha =p) . She wasn't really that related to the group , like 3rd degree friend ( may yeh -> adeline -> jamie) . Anyway , because she was on the queue with steph , we got to drink together. One thing lead to another and we were making out in the dance floor. ( that never happened to me ever, or her I think) . Adeline kinda thought I was the bad guy and dragged her away, hahaha I was a little confused. Anyway , I knew that steph got her number and so I left the club after that.

Within the 2 weeks after I know her.

I didn't actually write down the dates of the dates we been to after that.
We went to walk around at city hall that friday of the week, which i think should be 26th SEP , with jon and steph. We went prawning on the next one at east coast. Went to my place to have me cook seafood pasta ( I know its salty I m sorry hahah ) then to her place to stay over ( which was so unexpected and all thanks to steph I got to spend more time with her =p ).

I know its a little mushy, but I actually found her to be really sweet and perhaps the nicest girl ever =p. ( fly over the moon now hun, later I talk about your bad points muahah )

17th OCT 09
Evening till night?

Had our first kiss then, but strangely we didn't kiss to get together. We held hands and promised to let this relationship be a secret for 4months and end it after she flies off to Australia to study. It kinda made me felt like I was a fling but I think its worth the shot since the idea sounded fun anyway =p. Maybe she can be serious, who knows . =D

19th OCT 09
Afternoon till night

From here on it was just kinda secret dating, we went ice skating .

25th OCT 09
Visit Chinchillas.

30th OCT 09
Went to Halloween Parties. ( You have no idea how excited I was about the nurse costume =p )

5th NOV 09
Make Pancakes , which turned out quite awesome even thou we tried to make it from scratch.

7th NOV 09
Went Clubbing and still no one knows that we were together.

Until we decided its the best to tell everyone since it isn't really fun to keep it a secret anymore and it wasn't easy to ward off the guys that were trying to hit on her . =p
Hun, it has been the nicest 2 months I had, lets just not think about anything and enjoy the 2 months we have left ok? We got all the important events anyway, Christmas, New year's , Valentine's. xD

You made me happy =D

<3!

2009-11-20T04:08:00.000-08:00

2009-10-22T07:24:00.000-07:00

i m a little bit happy hahahhah

2009-10-14T15:45:00.001-07:00

white ranger tiger power ~~

hahahah Anyone knows where you can rent white ranger's suit?
I want to wear it to Halloween ! >.<

I don't understand why my friends disapprove me of wearing white ranger's suit to the party, I mean Benny would totally agree with my power ranger awesomeness.

Truth is that, I am really broke, so after thinking for sometime I decided to set up a Savethewhiteranger fund. All proceeds will be forwarded to making a little's boy's dream of becoming the white ranger for a day come true.

Please transfer your donation for Savethewhiteranger fund to POSB account 112-37447-7.

May the force be with you.

2009-10-01T21:08:00.000-07:00

Pictures from last week !
So tired and so damn broke but I think it cheered me up a little, I swear I will stop blogging emo-ly hahaha

2009-10-01T10:00:00.000-07:00

i love this =)

2009-08-31T07:25:00.000-07:00

Hao Xiang Tan Lian Ai ahhhh!! >.<

MY MOTHERFUCKING BIRTHSDAY!

2009-08-10T07:41:00.000-07:00

My birthday celebration!!

Just look at the pictures ! Its like the first time i saw betty drunk muahaha, I was drunk most of the time thats why i looked like that, I think. hahahah!
Anyway the presents were all really unexpected nice, I promise to attend each of everyone's birthday party who brought me a present and buy him/her a better present. =))

P.s. Thanks melissa for photoshopping that retarded picture of me HAHAHA.

2009-07-28T08:01:00.000-07:00

I think there is some problem with blogger , i can't upload any pictures at all.

Oh well, next friday 's party is totally making me excited !

You know the feeling after something you look forward to for very long, then it just ends on the morning after that?
I seriously wounder what will i have to look forward to after my birthday =/

fucking blogger fix up your damn ui, then i will upload pictures instead of typing rubbish

Random

2009-07-07T07:30:00.000-07:00

Cool huh!? muhahah i think i am affected by the snsd fever ahhh >.<

2009-06-16T06:45:00.000-07:00

Watch this. A man who was superman.
http://www.mysoju.com/a-man-who-was-superman/the-movie/part-1/

At least i just thought it was some stupid funny movie. Its so much more than that, I just finished this movie with tears still in my eyes.

If you dont cry from this movie, you aren't human.
Btw the link is up there just go and watch it you lazy people.

2009-06-13T21:59:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPH!

hahaha very touched right!!?

ps. you are the best jill ! hahaha hi5 LOL

2009-06-12T07:22:00.000-07:00

I was on the train just now, i saw this couple walking infront of me, with the guy holding the arm of the girl trying to coax her with a smile. The girl walked briskly and swapped the guy's hand away while shouting loudly with everyone around " dont play ". The guy stared at her, then turned away. The girl whom suddenly sensed the guy was angry and maybe she was overboard tried to make up for it by holding his arm. The guy looked at her coldly and turned away.

I was holding a psp the whole time . Then, I realised that I broke up with samantha because I was too weak to take anymore fights, I choosed to sit alone without anyone disturbing me and play games. I really didn't know why I kept lying to myself that i was trying to be mature and breaking off because we are going different paths was the right thing to do.

Man, i am an idiot.

Btw, happy birthday steph. haha

2009-06-05T06:41:00.000-07:00

It has been god know how long since i even typed anything in here.

I was blog surfing then i accidentally chanced upon this old jay 's song. damn sad laa....

Life really isn't that bad for me these days, even thou i keep saying that i can't find a girl, i suddenly found how impt friends are to you.
I got really close friends which i didn't have in poly , except for benny who kept acting retarded with me. Without jon and steph , i think i might have lost faith in this world and go kill myself.
& to eliza and angela whom i know for so long but never really had a chance to talk to, we seemed alot closer now =)

I really really really want to thank you all to stay by me, you have no idea how much u all meant to me .

arghh that song is driving me crazy ahahaha

2009-04-26T08:21:00.000-07:00

Pictures from sam's birthday last week!

see no emo post ^^

2009-03-12T23:55:00.001-07:00

Hello,

I just called for a cab earlier on today , i got this cab 8481 12+ pm and i got the worst attitude i have ever gotten from any taxi driver ever. The driver obviously mistaken the entrance for my location , I walked to the cab after which he kept repeating that i was in the wrong when i didn't want to start a fight. He obviously wants to fight and told me in a very impolite tone to " get out of the cab". Is this the kind of attitude i should be getting as a paying customer? What kind of service is this?
I hope that you can do something about this and at least reprimand the cab driver for his ignorant behavior.

Thank you.

FUCK U FUCKING COMFORT CAB FUCKER, I HOPE U BE A CAB DRIVER FOREVER.

2009-02-10T04:20:00.001-08:00

SOOO TOUCHING!! =(

2009-01-25T17:51:00.001-08:00

AHHHH STOP WISHING ME HAPPY NUI YEAR!!!!

2009-01-20T08:08:00.001-08:00

i m in love with this song!!~~

2009-01-16T07:05:00.000-08:00

missed so much the days i spent watching it started with a kiss!

and and and their new show " love or bread" ! they are going to kiss again ahhh !!
i think i got abit fa chun now. hahaha

2009-01-06T07:26:00.001-08:00

ARGGHGHHHH I M FUCKING BOREDDDDDDD

=(

2008-12-30T07:26:00.000-08:00

tonight - fm static

I really missed her so much but i can't tell her, after being scolded by 1082471308471 friends (ok i dont have that many friends) for being stupid trying to get things back to the way they were even though i know it wouldn't work out. I have gotten over , I am not emo , just misses the way she gaze into my eyes, the way she looks at me ever adoring without ever judging how i really looked.

" tonight , i m falling, and i can't get up ,
I need your loving hands to pick me up "

I need to fall in love again, not to get over her but to be happy again cause it doesn't seem to ever work out just finding friends. They eventually drift away or pair up .

God , i need a smoke.

p.s. JULIE SEND ME THE PICTURES LEHHHH. =.= VERY LONG LIAO LEH. please hahha

2008-12-26T20:22:00.001-08:00

Merry Christmas people =))

2008-12-03T03:56:00.000-08:00

This christmas let me cry on your shoulder for just one night.

2008-11-16T08:32:00.000-08:00

oh and pictures from yesterday

=(

oh and pictures from yesterday

2008-11-12T04:04:00.001-08:00

tell me how can anyone be sweeter than her?

2008-11-02T01:13:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday liwen and joyee !!

2008-10-19T06:13:00.000-07:00

went to sheesha with eliza and friends like yesterday after edwina's birthday bbq, honestly i can't really feel anything but like jelly favoured molecules in my throat.

I perfer smoking.

2008-10-13T02:41:00.001-07:00

Last friday was fucking awesome, for the first time I can't rmb my address when I was on the cab home hahaha.

Somemore kj and his gang were fucking fun la, after my first graveyard, I ma chiam can see jesus already.

MORE CLUBBING PLEASE.

and one more graveyard xD,

2008-10-06T08:10:00.000-07:00

After listening to this 2min track I almost killed myself.

2008-10-06T06:26:00.001-07:00

I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO UPDATEEEEEE =(

2008-09-15T22:46:00.000-07:00

I think I have lost friends after i pick up smoking, I have made new smoking friends, some of my close friends asked me to stop smoking cause it doesn't solve anything.

I dont know why but i enjoy being the opposite of a guy next door. I was seriously scared of pirecings before i had my first ear stud. I was crazy enough to get a tattoo on myself, I guess I just want to prove to myself that T have spent my life worth while. I dont want to be stuck in a office for the rest of my life from 8 -5 . No matter how many people frown upon how I m spending my life I dont think I will change how I am living now.

Live for my moment my dear friends and stop trying to follow what everyone is doing.

P.S. I found a little song to go with my post ^^
Avril Lavigne - Anything but ordinary

P.S. P.S. I found this song a few days back, its hearbreaking.

2008-09-13T19:44:00.001-07:00

ahh! when am i going to fall in love again?

2008-09-09T05:26:00.000-07:00

This 2 videos are i think by far the closest shot of the concert from nicole chen (http://nicolechen.net) , hope she doesn't mind ah !

p.s damn i wish i was that close !

2008-09-09T05:15:00.000-07:00

Avril - Complicated

Avril - Losing grip

Avril on the piano!

Avril - The best damn thing

Avril on guitar!!

Avril - opening

FINALLY GOT THIS STUPID THING DONE!
Avril's concert was a blast ! Although it was my first rock concert , i can tell it will definitely be the best one i will ever have! AND AND AND Avril is seriously pretty + cute ! She is super talented somemore! can play like everything! drums , guitar piano!
fuck, my girlfriend must be like that in the future ! hahahaha

ps. http://shoppholic.blogspot.com <- support this blog shop ! its eliza's! and the clothes are quite pretty and cheap +++ i 'm her friend sooo i think i can get discount right ? LOL
Anyway the models inside are quite chio so if u aren't intending to buy er just go in and look at the models ah!

2008-09-08T06:10:00.000-07:00

Avril - I dont have to try

Avril - drumming!!!!

damn dulan the uploading system la! i took like 5hours and i only got 2 videos up ! >.<
anyway i will try to get the rest of the videos up too , eliza dont gan jiong la !!

2008-09-07T09:34:00.000-07:00

AVRIL THE BEST DAMN TOUR!
eh i update tml i want to sleep >.<

2008-09-05T07:32:00.000-07:00

So what the heck,
Coz' I'll be laughing at all your silly little jokes,
And we'll be laughing about how we used to smoke.
All those stupid little ciggarettes and drink stupid wine,
Cuz' it was what we needed to have a good time.

this song is amazing and its stuck in my head for soo soo long!!

2008-09-03T23:15:00.000-07:00

I went for an x ray yesterday and i saw that 1/3 of my left lung is gone,
it was honestly quite scary.

2008-09-01T07:06:00.000-07:00

" I was just wondering, if we happened to meet, and I happened to ask you to marry me, what would you say? "

*har! eliza there i updated!

2008-08-19T07:38:00.000-07:00

THANK YOU ELIZA FOR GOING TO AVRIL'S CONCERT WITH ME!!!

2008-08-17T23:13:00.000-07:00

2 years being together and not even a message of happy birthday.
sigh.

2008-08-14T07:23:00.000-07:00

fucking itchy tattoo and cannot scatch , the feeling damn sucks like got chicken pox like that.

ANYHOW HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGELA !

and and and tml is friday xD XD XD

2008-08-12T05:12:00.000-07:00

because i love my country xD

2008-08-11T04:53:00.000-07:00

fuckkkk this show is the best

2008-08-08T11:30:00.000-07:00

Every stroke of the tattoo felt like a penknife cutting through my skin,
but when the very thought of you being in another guy's arms just makes the pain feel like nothing.

i know i should move on but i m just stupid . =)

2008-08-07T21:40:00.001-07:00

OOT LOH!!!!

2weeks of watching tv with officers and read newspaper xD

anyhow i m being posted to airforce next tuesday, fucking lucky la , somemore will get to wear their number 3 .

BYEBYE FUCKING TEKONG

2008-07-23T08:37:00.000-07:00

since i will be in camp on the 27th,
happy 3years to myself.

2008-07-21T08:33:00.000-07:00

i dont know why i waited for 2 months to watch the last episode but but but, it is still so touching.

=(

2008-07-21T07:07:00.001-07:00

fuck i m going in on friday.

AHHHHHHHH

2008-07-18T20:25:00.001-07:00

ah the ex girlfriend dream
what a sucky way to wake up.

good fucking morning

2008-07-17T04:40:00.001-07:00

People asked why am i looking sad these days.
I dont know.

2008-07-15T20:35:00.000-07:00

once there was a boy with very long dreadlocks.
now the boy shaved botak and doesn't have anymore hair.
=(

2008-07-09T03:16:00.000-07:00

Was walking home from school
December 1999
I was happy and I was on time
My mama always told me
Watch the road before I cross but
I was so excited cause I
Wrote her a poem and It said
Mommy I love you
I hate being alone
Mommy I love you cant wait
to get home
And there was a crash and I say

How Do I make right what
we've done wrong
How do I say I love you
by the end of this song
Lord help me understand

Was coming home from work
To see my wife
She's been struggling for days
Cause I was out of sight
I told her it was over
There aint anymore
And when I stepped inside there where
pills on the floor

Chorus

Been pushed and swept away
no one knows me anyway
I'm left alone with no one to phone
If I had one dying plea
It would be with my husband for eternity
These 16 years have left me
Bitter and old

Lord tell me if you can

sometimes i really wonder, how can u make it right when u know that you have done wrong.

2008-07-07T09:00:00.000-07:00

lets all sing along

Training to be soldier, fight for our land.
Once in our lives, 2 years of our time.
Have you ever wondered, why must we serve?
Because we love our land, and we want it to be free, to be free ya!

Looking all around us, people everywhere.
Children having fun, while we are holding guns.
Have you ever wondered, why must we serve?
Because we love our land, and we want it to be free, to be free ya!

2008-07-05T08:21:00.001-07:00

20 more days, 20 more fucking days

2008-07-04T00:42:00.000-07:00

no time to type but here are the videos and pictures ^^

2008-06-24T22:45:00.001-07:00

BANGKOK HERE I FUCKING COME!

2008-06-23T06:01:00.000-07:00

It was fishing trip a few weeks back and camwhoring in front of the mirror =)) thursday to bangkok!!!!

2008-06-22T07:39:00.000-07:00

Zhen hao 's birthday gathering.

sidenote : i was very high

2008-06-20T07:49:00.000-07:00

and you asked me what is life~

I bring you julia nunes - AUGUST, my favourite month of the year cause its my freaking birthday!!

side note : my stupid computer is spolit so i can't really upload my pictures =(

2008-06-15T10:06:00.000-07:00

i stayed up late last night till like 4am to just watch her sing and play on her uklele . if there is a definition of a perfect it will be her , julia nunes.

ps <- i linked her website there , i hope its ok. =))

anyway enjoy the music, my favourite breakup song =)

2008-06-14T12:46:00.000-07:00

so many pictures already i dont think i need to say anything ah!

p.s. thankyou ah eliza ! =p

now where is my gmax "risked my life" to get it video! where are u angela!

2008-06-14T00:54:00.000-07:00

she makes me laugh everytime =))

2008-06-10T07:20:00.000-07:00

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2008-06-09T03:23:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's fishing was fucking shiok la xD.
Me eug and kj each caught a fish , i think its all of our first time, the feeling of reeling in is unexplainable.
Although i felt uncomfortable as hell after drinking a pack of red bull, it was still damn nice.

WE MUST DO THIS AGAIN SOON.

XD XD XD

2008-06-06T02:35:00.000-07:00

I decided to try to learn abit of thai since i m going to bangkok soon and the first video i found on youtube was this.

HAHAH fuck i cannot stop laughing.

2008-06-03T07:15:00.000-07:00

=))

i chanced upon this quote when i was watching tv " love is allowing someone to hurt you, but believing them not to"

how true is that ?

2008-06-01T20:21:00.000-07:00

Last Friends

i dont know since when but i have became a huge fan of this actress (Nagasawa Masami) 2nd from the right.

actually this show kinda reflects so much on what is happening to this fucked up world now, she (Nagasawa Masami) has a messed up mum whom can't even rmb her own daughter's birthday , her mum even brings home an older man every night. Michiru(Nagasawa Masami) then decided to move in with her ever so caring boyfriend but he turns out to not only be a controlling freak ( ok i admit i m abit like that but i never beat my ex-girlfriend ), but hits her .
Michiru with no where to go ended up staying over her past lesbian? girlfriend.( they kinda bumped into each other a while back ).

and the theme song is damn fucking nice la
prisoner of love - Utada Hikaru

2008-05-31T00:33:00.000-07:00

I AM BOREDDDDDD sooo i went to get facial mask and pore pack LOLOL

2008-05-29T19:19:00.000-07:00

i dont know why i am still dreaming about you every night even though you have walked out of my life.

2008-05-27T22:37:00.000-07:00

bye bye x craft, hello bangkok =)

edit: did i say fuck x-craft? oh yes, fuck u you stupid bitch.
p.s. you are still my boyfriend eddy, HAHAHA

2008-05-27T09:01:00.000-07:00

samantha's birthday like a few weeks ago and the little remaining pictures from grad day!

a few more days of work! and fuck x-craft ^^

2008-05-26T00:46:00.000-07:00

I took mc today so I decided to watch some love story to burn my time.

I totally cried la . >.<

Guy makes Girl fall in love with him.
Girl falls madly in love with the Guy.
Guy made the Girl pregnant .
Wanted to get married and have the kid but lost the baby cause some bitch pushed Girl down the stairs.
Guy breaks up with Girl but never mention the reason.
Girl moved on to another guy.
Girl found out that the Guy had cancer.
Guy dies.

It just cannot get any simpler than this .

" Have you ever been truly happy? "